ANGEL
Angel
When you're near
Down my cheek sneaks a tear
Your smile lights up my very soul
You give me strength to reach my goals
You'll never feel the way I care
No one else will ever compare
I run away
and alone I pine
Because I know, you'll never be mine
I love the twinkle in your eyes
To the sound of your laugh
my heart does rise
my feelings for you will never fade
It's time we quit this masquerade
You said
I thought you loved me dear
You said so, softly- in my ear
You brought me happiness over the years
But now you're gone
Gone with the wind, on a trail
Of memories... I follow you
I hope to find you, locked up in your solitude
Feeling my pain
Knowing you left me with nothing to gain
You said let's be friends
But everytime I look at you
I start to cry
You treated me like trash and let others make your mind up for you
People told you lies and you believed without questioning
Look at what your one track mind lost you
You said you loved me
You said so, softly- in my ear- but- dear...
If you loved me- you'd still be here with me
To My Best Friend
I miss you so much and I worry
That while you're away you'll forget me
You mean so much to me
And I can't forget how understanding you can be
I miss you so much and I worry
That something might happen to you
Will I see you again
And I keep hoping you feel the same about me too
I miss you so much and I worry
That you might not love me when you come back
I'm afraid of what you might become
Will the Marines change you and turn your heart to black
For four years we've known each other
And suddenly I've discovered I care
And shudder to think
Of not having your love, that I can't bear
The Witch Of The Forebay
Pinched and wrinkled as it may be
Her face carried a timeless beauty and spoke of ageless wisedom
Her voice chimed like tiny bellsthat whispered on the night breeze
Her eyes of silvery gray held my gaze
And their startling beauty and youthfulness both terrified and thrilled me
She spoke of many frightening things
Both serious and half joking, her words taunted my very soul
Her tone pulled at my spirit and pricked my heart through and through
This witch who summoned me to this place of death
Why had I agreed to come here, alone
Why did I feel I could not say no
I knew I would die this night because of my many follies
And this witch would be the instrument of my untimely demise
Yes, this is the reason for which my heart aches and I struggle, in vain, to catch my breath
I am not bound by earthly ropes but by treachery and betryal
Her cold black aura threatens to over throw my sanity and suffocate my life force
The Rationalization Of A Psychopathic Killer
I'm cold
I'm weak
I'm alone
My arms are empty
My heart is numb
I'm chilled to the bone
I ache
I bleed
This cancer has grown
I laugh
I cry
I forget all that I've known
It burns
It sears
This evil you've sewn
I see
I know
You cover is blown
You whisper
You whine
I hate your tone
You flinch
You shudder
At the terror I've shown
As you die
I smile
You moan
I'm tired
I'm weary
It's time I've flown
My sins
My thoughts
God won't condone
It's time
I weep
I'm the devils own
I burn
I perish
Forever in Hell's zone
The Chair
In the garden
No bird offers up a cheery tune
No cricket chirps
Or hops around my toes
Instead, the peacock utters it's mournful cry.
And I shudder to think
Of what has brought this desolation
What has happened here
And is this worse yet to come
A single chair stands
In the middle of this destruction
Unharmed by unseen perils
And the evils of this modern world
It is a paradox
How could anything survive
And be so pure
How does one so meek
Touch the fire and not burn
How does a tiny ray of light
Reach what is so far gone
But alas,
The chair stands in the end
Offering shelter from Hell on earth
And promises a chance to start anew
And live forever...
Have you found you chair
"Tell Me"
Sweet love
When you're near
I hear you breathing in my ear
And I feel your arms around me
As you lie there asleep
I look at you and I see
You look so peaceful in your dream world
What do you dream of my dear
Do you dream of you and me
Running through the fields
Where daffodils and lavender bloom
Swaying in the wind
Do we fall to the ground in each others arms
Whispering of our future
And forgetting our past
Or do we dream at all
Is your sleep riddled with blank pages
Waiting to be written on by the goddess of dreams
Or by the fairies with their tiny paintbrushes of thistle
What do you dream of my love
In that far away Elysium of your mind
Do you feast on Ambrosia
And sip on fine wines on the mount of Olympus
Tell me
Solitude
You said: In the darkness of my solitude you'd be there...
For better or worse! But you lied!
Every kiss was meant for someone else!
You say you still love me... But you love her too!
I'm hurting so much inside,
What can I do?
I'm not into sharing anything,
Least of all you!
Everyday... more and more you drift away!
I'm hopeless in my anger,
Lost in our love of once upon a time,
Engulfed in my sadness... and truely abandoned-
Left alone in the darkness of my solitude...
And you're not there
You said: When I fell, trembling and alone, you'd be there...
Through sickness and in health! But you lied!
All you dreamt about was someone else!
You say you still want me... But you want her too!
I'm dying so much inside,
What will I do?
I can't forget you, but I must go.
I'm leaving you!
Shining Star
In the sky, a shining star
Shining not for me
But only for thee
Although its bright
It tells of a love that's not to be
Once that star was brighter though
From afar
When we were together and inlove
A sweet blissful dream
Full of incense and myrrh
May it shine on me my lover
Give me one more chance
Hold me once again
My shining star
Sadly Enough
Sadly enough
your lies persuaded me
sadly enough
my love betrayed me
you never call
yet into your trap
again, I fall
came home again
I know where you've been
Sadly enough
I forgave
but sadly enough
you put me in my grave
Only
Only in my dreams
Could I have your love
Only when I slept
Could I feel your passion
So I longed for the night
And cried myself to sleep
I waited for my dreams to come
When I could see you again
Then, to my surprise
You opened your heart
And let me inside
Our love was strengthened
And my passions were set free
Mended
In the fiery pits of Hell
Where sorted demons deadly dwell
Where being cold is being hot
Being without that peace you sought
Where your souls for Satans keep
Where your souls for passions weep
Where the pain shall not be ended
How you wish your sins were mended
Love me so, Love me not
Love me so, love me not
But I have an undying love for thee
Love me not, love be so
But I plead with thy heart, set my soul free
Just Listen
Every story has at least two sides
But no one will listen to mine
How can anything be solved by shutting one another out
Just listen
These are the rules by which no one abides
Time and time again they cross the line
Science says we evolved over time
While others say we were divinly created
Just listen
Don't scream to solve your problems
Talk them all the way through
Lay your cards down and let others speak
Just listen
Blow sorrows away like bubbles
Let love, faith, and kindness guide you
Remember, it's peace you seek
Just listen... to every story
Inside My Head
Inside my heart there is a cloud of pain
Inside my heart is a feeling of helplessness
I cannot shake it
But I pray that one day it'll work out
Maybe one day our love will be fulfilled
One day the barriers which loom so insidiously
In our path towards our dreams
Will be overcome by our love
Sadness creeps into my chest
And my bones yearn to set my passion free
Eternity To Care, Never To Hold!
This tear upon my cheek
Is one of many I've cried for you
So far and getting further still
That which is tangible
Is made untouchable
That which is known
Is proven untrue
Three words once flowed from your lips
Are now bitter sweet memories
The question is not how or why
But when.
When was love snatched from our grasp
What mischief is at hand
We shall not turn our backs again
For what is readily grasped in our hearts
Is greedily torn from our souls
Two star crossed lovers
Eternity to care, never to hold
I See
Happiness beyond compare
In your eyes of blue I see laughter
Peace and understanding there
In your two arms I feel joyful
Love and compassion awake
On your lips I taste desire
Hopefulness is golden
In your voice I hear love
Pillow Talk
Not so much as a "Thank you"
Not even an "It was nice"
Shoulda called but you didn't...
"I had fun last night" would suffice!
Coulda done for some pillow talk!
I'd have loved a kiss goodbye.
You shoulda fed a lie to me...
Not a word you say, I sigh!
Lastnight you said the sweetest things!
I can't believe we had a one night stand.
Lastnight I hoped to woo your heart...
In the mour, I reach, in vain to hold your hand!
I've dreamt or you since I met you!
You seemed so suave with your cool mystique.
Silently I begged you, please, oh please...
Brighten this world that seems so bleak!
Step Up Boy
I can't read your mind.
I can't tell if you're gunna luv me...
I can't tell if you wanna get this started,
Set it off boy, don't be shy!
I'm the girl you'll never find.
I'm the love you might never see...
I'm the life form which you parted,
Step up boy, toucht the sky!
She's the rope that binds.
She will never set you free...
She's the pain you coulda thwarted,
Grow some wings boy, and use 'em to fly!
Love is our sign.
Love will always be...
Love will never be the departed,
Don't let it boy, let it pass us by
I Fall For You
I'm stumblen'
Cuz I kinda like the way you smile
I'm gigglen'
Cuz I kinda like the twang in your voice
I'm shaken'
Cuz I'm kinda taken in by your eyes
I'm hopen'
Cuz I kinda want to get to know you
You're so kind
And I'm so grateful for that
You're handsome
And I find it hard to concentrate
You're so smart
And I feel like I can't compare
You're so talented
I need to strive to keep up
I'm so nervous
Hopen' you might stay a while
I'm so happy
You said my name and looked my way
I'm so sad
I'm probably just a friend to you
Yet delirious
One day, you might want more than this
I'm silly
Can't look at you without blushing
I'm funny
Cuz I stumble when I speak to you
I'm stupid
Don't know how to tell you how I fell
I'm Pathetic
I trip, I bumble, I fall for you
Something More
You!
You're the one who makes me shiver!
You!
You're the man that makes me yearn...
For something more.
Me!
I'm the one who fell so fast!
Me!
I'm the one who dreams at night...
For something more.
We!
We're the ones who dance this dance!
We!
We're the ones who chose this path...
Wanting something more.
And all the while:
We twist and turn,
Tasting emotions, that make us what we are!
We are passionate, we are crazy...
We can't be something more.
You!
You're the one who touched my heart!
You!
You're the one who comes so close...
To something more.
Me!
I'm the one who can't forget!
Me!
I'm the one who kissed your lips...
Inviting something more.
We!
We're the ones who must make this stop!
We!
We're the ones who will get hurt...
If this is something more.
Sunset On A Beach
I sit and watch the waces roll in
They bring with them a gentle breeze
I sometimes wish I were the foam
That floats with the ebb and flow of the sea
Gone would be the heart break
Away would float my sorrow
Never again to be haunted by my memories
Wouldn't need to own or borrow
No need to cry anymore
But how could I live life
Only living for tomorrow
Son wanton without a care
Gone also the excitement that calls to my heart
Away would the savage wind take me
Never to rest upon one shore
How would life be if I live as foam
On the crest of a wave and nothing more
Never would I taste those lips of yours
How could I dream to live
Without the love I hope to find in you
What would I ever gain in life
Were I nothing but the foam between your toes
As you walk so forelorn upon the shore
And not to give love another chance
To let us try to begin anew
Instead, may I please have this dance
Oh maybe this pain will go away
With your arms around me
This music solely in our minds
The sun setting on our anguish
With our hearts beating so wildly
We smile as if we share a private joke
Our eyes speaking words we struggle to say
As we cling to each other
I wouldn't have it any other way
Please stay right by my side
DESIRE
You Came Suddenly Into My Life
Like A Cool breeze on a rainy night
I had felt so much grief and pain
But with your eyes you dimmed my strife
Yes those eyes so green and bright
And I really don't know what's to gain
Despite all that I've been through
I still want to hold you tight
To discover the secrets of your heart
Out of my despair, hope grew
You spoke and my heart took flight
I reach for words but don't know where to start
Your voice is so sexy and deep
It fills me like the beating of drums
Your body has a deep and subtle musk
It fills my senses and inside I weep
My pain, your vivid passion numbs
I want to fall asleep beside you at dusk
Why do I feel so vulnerable around you
Yet so alive and free at the same time
How could I be so reckless with my soul
To let it free again, what did I do
The way you make me feel has no reason or rhyme
Yet I still refuse to let you fill this hole
